Sunday, November 16, 2014

13 week update!



How far along are you? 13 weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Loss of 19lbs that means I have actually gained a pound though!

Sleep: I am so very tired, BUT I swear I can not sleep good for the life of me.

Best moment this week: I am officially in my 2nd trimester! Just 189 days until my due date!

Have you told family and friends: Yes

Food cravings: Toffee Almond crunch cookies, Salads with ranch (craving one right now)

Anything making you queasy or sick: I am slowly feeling better, Still can not do Peanut butter or most dairy but I am slowly starting to be able to eat again!

Have you started to show yet: Well because my med bloat is gone I am officially not showing again... In fact I am actually looking a good bit smaller than before I was pregnant.

Gender prediction: I am unsure. Thinking belly buddy might be a girl but I have never carried a boy either.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on! and still loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time: This week very moody. I have gotten annoyed or angry at a lot of different things, and have been very vocal about my feelings.

Weekly Wisdom: I need to relax! Easier said than done right? But before every appointment I have I get so nervous and scared that something could be wrong. But belly buddy has been doing exactly what it needs to be doing is and growing so quickly!

Milestones: 13 weeks means we are officially in the 2nd trimester! WOW the first one went by quick...

Maternity clothes? Maternity clothes and lazy clothes if I don't have to change out of my leggings or yoga pants now way am I going to be wearing anything else.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Not yet. BUT I should be feeling that in the next 1-3 weeks! Come on Belly buddy I want to feel you!

 Labor Signs: Thank goodness this is a big fat NO!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Bumpdate! and Doctors appointment.

     So Yesterday I had a doctors appointment it was just a regular check up, to make sure that everything is still going ok.

     They did all the normal stuff. Checking weight, Blood pressure, Measuring the belly, going over what is going on. BUT we also got an ultrasound! We got a little peak into what Belly buddy looks at 12 weeks 4 days!

     This little buddy was moving around like crazy and liked making it hard for the doctor to get the measurements that he needed. He or she is already being stubborn S+J looks like you too might have your hands full with this little one! 

     Now for the bump date. For those of you that have seen me I know my stomach probably looks smaller than last time you saw me BUT that is because I was FINALLY able to stop the shots and 90% of the medication I was taking (still on my prescription prenatal and Zofran). The medications I was on cause what we call Med Bloat. Well now that is all gone so it is just my fluffy self and Belly buddy in that belly! 
     So we are past the 12 week mark! As of next week I am officially in the 2nd trimester! Lets just hope that belly buddy gets that memo and gives me a break on all this nausea! 

Monday, November 10, 2014

12 week update

     So I know that I have been terrible at doing my weekly updates but I am going to try to get back on track, My plans are to post a weekly update on Sunday or Monday and a bump update probably around Thursdayish... Ok I will post them on Thursday. 



How far along are you? 12 weeks 1 day!

Total weight gain/loss: I now down 20 pounds... But I am FINALLY able to eat again so that loss should be slowly hopefully become smaller.

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. And I now sleep as much as possible. I am in bed by 9 most nights and feel like a old lady with how early I go to bed. 

Best moment this week: I am officially to 12 weeks pregnant! Out of the scary zone! I have an appointment on thursday and can not wait to see my little Belly Buddy again! 

Have you told family and friends: Yes

Food cravings: Mashed Potatoes, Ceasar Salad, and Arby's anything from Arby's must get in my stomach.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Yes any random smell, funny enough the taste of my anti nausea medication, and peanut butter is back on this list. 

Have you started to show yet: I can still hide it with the right shirt but I am showing now! 

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on! 

Happy or Moody most of the time: I think I am happy a lot more! I am still very emotional but getting a bit better!

Weekly Wisdom: Take advantage of the good days and binge watch Gilmore girls, and do noting on the days that you can hardly get through the day.

Milestones: We are 12 weeks pregnant AND FINALLY out of the "Danger Zone"

Maternity clothes? I went maternity clothes shopping, and gosh these clothes are so much more confy. I am also taking advantage of leggings and Yoga pants as much as possible. 

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet, But I think I that will happen in the next month or so!

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

Monday, October 20, 2014

9 week update!




How far along are you? 9 weeks and 1 day!

Total weight gain/loss: I now down 15 pounds... Shoot how did happen I have actually been able to eat again....

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. Other than when it is time to sleep, then I am wide awake.

Best moment this week: I got to celebrate a friends birthday but I found out I can't deal with drunk people lol...

Have you told family and friends: Yes

Food cravings: Fruit, Salads, Pizza rolls, Mashed potatoes, and bagels with cream cheese.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Still just about everything is making sick still but I am starting to feel a bit better.

Have you started to show yet: I think it is safe to say I am showing.... (even if it might just be Med bloat)

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried.

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting looser

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY, but mostly weepy I cry all the time at everything.

Weekly Wisdom: Bars are not as fun when you are the sober one...

Milestones: 9 weeks We have our second Ultrasound on Friday so keep a eye out for a update Friday or Saturday!

Maternity clothes? I am using the few left over things I have from the girls pregnancies and go shopping this week because I need clothes that fit!

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

8 week update


My belly buddy is over half a inch big now!
It is just crazy how fast that little one is growing! 



How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss: I am still down 12 pounds, no change from last week.

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. Other than when it is time to sleep, then I am wide awake.

Best moment this week: I went a whole day without puking this week.

Have you told family and friends: Yes if someone doesn't know they have been living under a rock.

Food cravings: Fruit, garlic bread, Olive Garden salad, Strawberry Lemonade Powerade.

Anything making you queasy or sick: What doesn't make me feel sick... Pickles, The smell of any and all mexican food, anything sweet, even seeing raw meat, chicken, pasta, cheese, milk, well anything dairy.

Have you started to show yet: I look like I ate a big lunch.

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried.

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY, but mostly weepy I cry all the time at everything.

Weekly Wisdom: Not even Zofran works all the time.

Milestones: 8 weeks! Only 4 more weeks until we are out of the first trimester.

Maternity clothes? I am using a Belly band and just wearing my longer shirts. I did break out one pair of maternity Jeans though.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

7 weeks Pregnant!



My Belly Buddy is the size of a Blueberry! 
He or She is finally half an inch long! 


How far along are you? 7 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss: I am down 12 lbs now thanks to my lovely friend morning sickness. Yes I am on Zofran but it just makes me not throw up, it doesn't make me feel better I am still having a hard time stomaching food.

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. I oversleep, I take a nap at any chance I get.

Best moment this week: Going to the ultrasound and seeing a baby and a heartbeat! It was amazing to actually see S+J's baby.

Have you told family and friends: Well I think it is pretty safe to say everyone knows by now...

Food cravings: Fruit, Milk (even though I can't keep it down), BBQ potato chips, and Ceasar salad, good chili, and pasta!

Anything making you queasy or sick: What doesn't make me feel sick... Pickles, The smell of any and all mexican food, anything sweet, even seeing raw meat

Have you started to show yet: I am in the my clothes don't fit and I look like I had a really big lunch phase, I am using a belly band and the "Hair tie trick".

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried. In all honest I have clue...

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY! But working on trying to be happy.

Weekly Wisdom: No matter how well you think you are feeling and how much it sounds good, DON'T DRINK MILK.

Milestones: We are at 7 weeks, and we officially know it is one baby! Yay for first ultrasound.

Maternity clothes? I am using a Belly band and just wearing my longer shirts. I did break out one pair of maternity Jeans though.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.


     If there is anything you think I should add to this little questionnaire just comment and let me know! I am more than happy to add more questions if you want to know anything else!

Saturday, October 4, 2014

The stressful side of surrogacy

     I have posted a lot about excitement and nerves, but I have not posted about the stress of surrogacy, and trust me there is a lot of stress to go around.

     While I do not regret doing this for a second I also did not know how much stress I would put on myself. Stress for each doctors appointment hoping my levels are right, or my lining is thick enough, then stress of something that I could do might mess up the transfer, the worrying about if my beta (hcg) numbers were high enough.

     Then there was the ultrasound. I know the parents wanted two babies. How could they not? So I was hoping and praying and wishing that there would be two in there. I convinced myself that there had to be two. Then there was one.

     Don't get me wrong I am so excited that there is a healthy baby with a healthy heartbeat growing inside of me for the parents. I am ecstatic for them.

     But in a way I feel like failed them. I feel like I let them down by only one of the embryos sticking.

     Everything was textbook, I did everything exactly by doctors orders never missing a pill or a shot. Yet I am sitting here wondering if there was anything I could have done differently.

     The funny thing is I never once stressed so much in either of my pregnancies. I just know that so much is riding on this being a healthy baby, and I want to make sure that they get a perfect healthy child.

     I know calm down you shouldn't be stressing while you are pregnant and I am working on that I have been working on relaxation techniques and have even been doing some progressive relaxation and guided imagery (when I can get the apartment quiet enough to do it).

    Surrogacy is a bit harder than I thought it would be. I never never been this sick in my life. I am so tired of having to give myself shots. But I just keep telling myself it is all for J&S. The look on their face when they first see their baby, and helping them become a family is my end goal!